Cradle of Filth

Jefferson once mentioned that I always reference how I used to be a little goth girl, and that perhaps that would be something fun to write about in my blog, perhaps through music.

When I was in middle school and high school, I never quite fit in. I don’t quite fit in now, but it was different then.

How man middle schoolers have such a dark sense of humour as I did? Were fascinated with serial killers, torture, weird diseases? How many were fascinated by mortuary culture, and the history of funeral directing? How many knew about side show freaks, great historical hoaxes? I bet you don’t even know what adipocere is now.

And of course, that paganism thing. I started studying pagan religions when I was 14. That was bound to get out. Everyone thought I was a witch, which was actually pretty useful. People mostly left me alone.

So, I went with it.

Once I reached high school, there were like, three other goth kids, one of whom I was friendly with.  People used to think we were sisters, even though we looked nothing alike.

I had always been drawn to the goth aesthetic, as well as some of the music. I started dressing more and more ‘goth’, wearing more make up.  At first, I looked really really dumb.

Eventually, I learned how to pull an outfit together, and do make up well. I had long red nails, or short black nails, depending.  (They were acrylic. It was Long Island! Give me a break!) By the time I was 18, 19, I was dressing with a distinct gothic sensibility, but in a very classy way. For work, I was classy goth. For play, I was classy historical goth.

That was the phase of my life where I stopped wearing pants, and only wore skirts. I also stopped wearing flat shoes, and would wear nothing lower than a 2 1/2 inch heel. Unless, of course, I was wearing my Docs.

Ah, memories.

The video above was the first Cradle video I ever saw.

Man, did I want to fuck Dani Filth so hard, once I figured out how.

Also, there t-shirts are so raunchy, even I worried about wearing them in public, and *I* own a t-shirt declaring that ‘I <3 My Vibrator’
I wish I could find the ‘Cemetery Slut’ baby doll again…

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