Recently, I told a male friend of mine who I liked very much how much I liked him. And sadly for me, he didn’t like me back in the same way. Yet after a day or two of me being sad panda and hanging out with friends, we were able to talk things over in [...]

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I don’t know what it is lately, but I’ve been fantasizing, and getting off to my fantasies more and more and more. I think its a combination of being late with my usual hormonal birth control, reading “The New Topping Book” (it gives me Ideas), dropping 34lbs and being all full of energy, and the [...]

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I finally went to an “In The Flesh” reading last night. Goddamn was it hot. It was also very fun. And who can’t like a night where there are cupcakes every where?
I had an excellent time with people, and got to see Marcello – alas, it had been far to long since the last time [...]

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Ah, Paolo. If you follow me on Twitter, you might have read about Paolo. My Italian cabana boy.
Paolo is the name of one of my favourite fantasy men. I don’t really have many fantasy men I created myself. Usually, I fantasize about men I know, men I want to know or hot famous guys like [...]

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So tonight I did something I don’t normally do at scene events. I had my photo taken.
See, I tend to be very careful about my identity, especially online. I don’t want my birth name, the name I work under and what not, linked to Wendy Blackheart, even though Wendy is the name I use for [...]

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